email written on the day of Sam's death, 4/19/03...  / Leslie (cousin)
Dear Karen,

I could hear the sadness in your voice when you called today. I wasn't prepared for what you were about to tell me. I didn't know what to say. I kept thinking that this can't be true. I could hardly concentrate on what you were saying as I had difficulty taking it in. It really seems unreal. Sam's memory is so fresh in my mind that I feel as if he is here right now. I can't even imagine what you and Dave must be going through right now.

I can't stop thinking about Sam. I can't stop thinking about you and Dave and how you are doing right now. I wish that I could be there. I feel so far away.

Sam had so much to contribute to this world. He was so talented. He had so many gifts. Bryan and I sure enjoyed the time we spent with him when he stayed over night with us. He played the guitar for us. I remember this one song that he played that I just loved. I kept asking him to play it over and over again. Sam would laugh and play it one more time. (Bryan says, "I remember this too, Leslie kept asking him to play it over and over, and Sam would just chuckle, smile and play. What a great guy.")

I remember the photo of Sam and I in front of Krispy Kreme with our hats on. He had his Charmin shirt on. He had a great sense of style and humor. He sure liked those Target shirts!

There is so much to be remembered about Sam. He had such a kind, gentle spirit. I believe that his spirit is still with us. He is looking after you now as he knows that you are filled with sadness. He knows the incredible amount of love you and Dave had for him. I believe that he heard you talking to him in the hospital. Hearing is the last sense to go. I distinctly remember Grandpa responding to my words when he was in a coma. Sam's spirit will forever be with you and Dave.

May God give you strength. I love you so much. Love, Leslie Close